There is a knot in my gut this morning. Which is the reason I decided to write. Maybe I’ll find some fellow troopers on the path of uncertainty out there. Life is like that… Sometimes you think you are “up for something,” and then lo and behold, you find you are not so “up” after all!
My uncertainty is simple. My husband has taken a new job 2000 miles away. And waking up the first morning home without him is…well lonely and strange . Even though my adult son is here (so I’m not really alone)– and we talked about how to make this work and how it can be a good thing for awhile…. I didn’t expect this knot in the gut–because I’m just an easy going, flexible person, and God has my back (He does!), etc… However, we did not expect that Rick would wake up to SNOW in Laramie the day after Memorial Day. Or that some annoying issues would pop up the first day there with paper work and parking, and some items he needed would be, uh, back here. Hmmm…lots of adjustments for a Carolina guy.
But, being on the back side of fifty (old…) , I know that humbling events are actually good, even though I don’t like them. They SCARE me. They also might make me look and feel incompetent–and I might even BE a bit incompetent (God forbid!). However, when this happens other things also happen–like: 1) I pray more honestly 2) I ask others for help, and maybe make a new friend and 3) I learn that feeling anxious doesn’t actually kill me–especially if I talk and pray about the specific thing I dread the most.
So like this snow my husband took a picture of back in April on his way out to visit Laramie…there can be beauty in facing uncertainties in life. I am hoping to encounter them head on in the coming months—-feel free to join me if you, too, have a knot in your gut. Who knows, the journey might just be fun and we can loosen that knot together!