It’s a Monday here. I realize I am fighting the blues. I keep telling myself I shouldn’t be…because there are many people in situations much more dire than mine! In fact, I am not in a “dire” situation at all…however, I am in an “abnormal” situation like everyone else! I am estranged from my husband, who was working out of state when COVID-19 struck–and unable to make plans to see him. So, like many others–Abnormal is an apt word for our lives–at minimum. And for some, who have been unable to be with loved ones the few days before they passed away–unthinkable is more apt.
After awhile, abnormal becomes–stressful–no matter what point your life falls on the scale of abnormal to unthinkable. So I was grateful this morning for the Daily Bread that focused on Psalm 42. Because not only does this Psalm remind us we WILL “put [our] hope in God” again –[despite very discouraging times]–the Psalmist also gives meaningful expression to our feelings during such times. Listen…
“Day and night I have only tears for food…” (v.3)
“My heart is breaking…” (v.4)
“My God! Now I am deeply discouraged…” (v.6)
“‘O God my rock,'” I cry, ”’Why have Your forgotten me? Why must I wander around in grief?'” (v.9)
“Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad?” (v.11)
Often we hesitate to spend time giving voice to our feelings of sadness, frustration, or grief–if we are Christians. Instead, we press on to the “solution verses” and just focus on the “God will help us” parts. Because, yes, it’s true–He will. But it’s also obvious from this Psalm (and others) as well as Jesus’s own ministry, that giving time and voice to pain and suffering is important.
Jesus wept, too. And He is the One Who said: “Come to Me all Ye who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” (Matt. 11:28) I assume He said this, because He knew we are all heavy laden with many things. Our sin, yes, but the troubles of this world, too. Jesus mentions those as well, and offers His peace, which is unlike that of this world (tied to circumstances) (John 14:27). I note that with His Peace He does not promise an escape from suffering on this earth (John 16:37), just an antidote in Himself to deal with the troubles of this world and an eternal solution to sin and strife. Which I find to be more honest and genuine than any other offer quite frankly.
So back to our Psalm 42. It is therapeutic to recite it aloud. Sometimes there is no concrete answer to ‘Why is my heart so sad?”– and sometimes there is. Regardless, God is there feeling our pain and offering Himself to share the yoke of suffering with us. And with the Psalmist we, too, can eventually say,
“Each day the LORD pours His unfailing love upon me; and through each night I sing his songs…” (v.8)